Ikutkan blog aku ni jarang ada citer bab gossip2 ni..tp yg ni aku terpanggil nak share sebab penulis surat terbuka ni memberikan pendapat atau teguran yang well said..bukan setakat utk Coco..tp untuk mereka2 di luar sana yang bercadang untuk bercinta dengan suami org....
You may fall in love many times in life, but there will always be one, one very special one. One you would want to spend your life with. One you will keep in your heart. Always.
It is with heavy heart that I share this with all, the skeleton in my closet many years back, with hopes that I could help other girls make rightful choices.
Kehadapan saudari Coco dan saudara Azrin,
Direnjis disalam penuh cermat,
Inai merah penuh ditangan,
Semoga kekal semoga selamat,
Selamat Pengantin Baru saya ucapkan
I saw your wedding pictures.
Dan ya, cinta tak mengenal usia, tak mengenal rupa. I was once as young as you coco, I was once on that road many has wrongfully taken..
Bercinta dengan suami orang, hakikatnya, you will never know until you become the person in that shoe.. Kehidupan yg sangat sedih dan mengecewakan.. I think that part of life gave me depression.. Bagai sumpahan, maka saya lebih berhati-hati dengan perkataan dan kehidupan selepas itu..
Coco, beza saya dengan saudari cuma satu. Saya tidak punya hati untuk mengecapi kebahagiaan atas kesengsaraan orang lain. I left.. Dalam sendu dan airmata but I left..
I left what I see today as, a toxic relationship. I thought at that time that, that love could never die.. I was wrong.. I fell out of love totally.. Nil.. He could no longer make me smile, whatmore laugh..
Saudari, sebagai manusia biasa, kadang-kadang kita terbuai dan tidak dapat membezakan rasa cinta dan rasa menang. You dont want the prize but you want to win the competition. I told myself, "I am young, I am prettier, I am in control and I would win this". It became toxic. That mindset was toxic.
Worst thing is that, I do not want the prize. I knew deep inside I deserve a better man. Yet despite that I kept on swimming for what i thought is victory. I was that person.. I was like you Coco and so many other girls I know who is in this pool of pride..
Nasihat saya bagi yg belum terlambat, leave.
Leave before life gets back to you kerana melukakan hati insan lain.. True one can marry up to 4, tak ada salahnya, but if he wishes to do so, it needs to be in a manner of not hurting a single soul kerana doa orang yg teraniaya itu tiada hijab dengan Allah..
Saif came at the right time to save me from drowning in my own pool of pride and self arrogance. My family helped me thru it.. I needed alot of help bcz heartbreak is never easy for young naive souls.
Was I broken? Ya. At that time I thought my emotion was beyond repair.. But as I look back at it today. It was not love, it was the idea of being in love.
You want to know true love Coco?
That one person you look forward to see, to hear from, to hold in your arms. One person who you could laugh with endlessly.. Whatever the odds maybe.. Somebody you light up around and make you a better version of you.. Cooking for them becomes a joy even if its just scramble eggs.. Somebody you want to have around on your worst of days..
Some people give years of their life in waiting. That one person you wish all goes well for, near or far.. The same person you love so much he is the last you think of before you sleep and the first one when you wake up..
Love is not just feelings. Its more than that.. Love is commitment
Sometimes love happens to people who are not supposed to fall in love.. You decide whether its worth it or not.. Before anything, ask yourself whether it is love, or just you loving the idea of being in love.. Is it love driven or challenge driven..
I found mine after a long life search.. I am happy that I finally found true love.. I am at peace with life knowing that true love hit me right.. Right timing, wrong timing nobody comes into your life by accident.. Allah knows best
So Coco, I hope now that you may have found yours Coco, keep it low, because it is sad to break other people's happiness just because you found yours.. Dont be boastful about it, there is nothing to be proud of.. You did not win anything, there was never a competition, its all in your mind..and that prize you think you won, be careful it bite the last owner.